I’m beginning to doubt my future as a designer, because such a slacker wouldn’t even do for anything at all. There’s no drive for me to work at all, the lack of inspiration makes assignments really dull, and the many other frustrations like staying true to using my own images while others easily settle for stocks and brushes (it’s my philosophy, but I won’t care to explain), my lack of reference which has become a perpetual barrier preventing improvement of any sort from the current lousy standard I hold. I fearfully predict that this may last for the next one and a half years.
Grades no longer serve to encourage hard work from me, yet it’s what determines our “value” here. Does hard work really equate to good grades? I refuse to do anymore than what I feel like doing for there may be no end to that process, and I refuse to do what has been done before. So, my philosophies would probably kill me sooner than I expect. And by the end of it all, I would be left with nothing to move forward with; only everything to hold on to.
Something must be amiss. Life is not suppose to be like this?
In need of some thrill at this point of my life, I caught the horror flick Unrest on thursday. The gore was nothing, however, the very fact that they gave us an insight on Gross Anatomy and the real-looking cadavers (did I read somewhere they used real one(s)?) made me flinch in my seat, although it had been the most interesting thing to learn how they dealt with the donated corpses. Shipping them in wooden crates, dump them all in the liquid-filled tank, retrieving them like dump using only a metal hook to pull them out, etc. With regards to the realistic aspect, it had all been very gross but mind-blowing and good to watch. I simply CANNOT understand how in one particular scene the actor and actress had managed to bring themselves to jump into that murky tank, filled with gross looking corpses and body parts, in a bid to free their cursed cadaver. A very chilling thought huh. Besides the great acting and incredibly chilly atmosphere of the hospital corridors and lab, I dislike the story itself and the supernatural theme they decided to base this film on. And the terrible sound effects that were enough to disrupt what was going on in the scene. And I had expected Unrest to be a good movie =(
My right hand developed blisters while I was playing in a match during training last friday. One of them burst and made it impossible for me to grip the bat without a plaster. Till now it still looks terribly ugly. Over the weekend, I slept much, watched Yamada Taro Monogatari a second time, finished Bambino in two days and am now watching Romance (the Korean drama from quite long ago). No matter how much about Arashi I show to my mum, she can’t seem to deflect away from her favourite Kim Jae Won haha, although through YTM she’s come to like Sho-kun quite a bit for his prince-like image as Takuya Mimura (hmm, I wonder if it’s mean to be a pun on Takuya Kimura? Lol), Nino x Oh-chan (his cameo and the Ohmiya SK moment in the final episode) more (also because of that super super funny Mago2 Kodomo no Bangohan clip here), and through Bambino, MatsuJun a little more maybe. Where’s Aiba? In the zoo…. Not surprising I always associate him with the zoo. Oh yeah! We can’t stop discussing and laughing at the hilariously baka way Aiba introduced his name in Chinese during their 06 concert in Taipei. He sounded like a crow, or frog being slaughtered. ROFL.
Well if you’re wondering (at all?), I definitely feel better after this blog entry. Ciao! *Damn, this was suppose to be a solemn entry……*
