I cleared out half the clothes, alll unwanted, from the closet, but I still face a huge problem in picking what to wear. I reformatted the laptop, found various sources to get the photoshop software but all forms of installation failed. In order to install the cs3, I had to download something called framework 2.0. After I downloaded, the entire comp went berserk, kept auto restarting and I couldn’t even restore anything. Oh the time gone to waste. I reformatted, again, photoshop disc didn’t work, again. I didn’t go to school that day, and had to send the entire 20mb psd file to the cdi team members using the pc just because I couldn’t do anything on my laptop. And guess what, either the sending failed or it took damn damn long to attach the file because of the unusally slow connection on both sides. How the hell can all these happen at the same time? What am I doing cdi for? I don’t know for sure anymore. Lack of motivation. All I need is that ONE thing; to spur me on, to get up on my feet and start running. To make me feel alive once again. And I know that ONE thing might not be easily found in the words that come from any of you. It might be a person, it might be a situation, it might be an incident, a cat, or when school reopens, or the urgent demand to produce work that forces me to continue.

There has got to be sacrifices. But in the end, I still want to do a lot of other things. Simply put, I’m extremely frustrated. Even more so knowing that this cycle won’t end any sooner than I want it to. Don’t wanna do work, don’t want to. Don’t want to!!!

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

Tomorrow is a new day. Cheers~