The late morning light, quite obscured by curtains, paints my room in near monochrome.
I woke up to Debussy’s Arabesque No.1 playing over and over in my head,
and the feeling of being very detached from myself.

the dams have reached their breaking point, bursting in response, yet the gates find no release; instead a void of space now fills where the flood waters used to be. said waters convey the massive load that drown out love and kindness along the way, feelingless as matter, lost without purpose.

nothing hardly ever means anything.
one word; 下らない。
can’t see rhyme or reason through this cloud of reality.
i’m utterly confused; what is this all about?

don’t come looking for me first because you know i won’t do the same
to anybody. it’s a game, and i’ll always win
in the greatest defeat

when you live for sheer moments, you kind of fade a bit
by the day

in the middle of some evenings come the dawning awareness
of what i can’t even wrap my whole mind around

then sometimes
i’d love to just sit and watch it pass me by
like a 下らない movie that’s not really mine

Well, you see, even the doctor’s psychic.
What is wrong with my immune system these days?
On a sidenote:
My savings has been exhausted and I’ve just enough to last me for only one week;
how ironic that I had so much more when I wasn’t yet working.
So as the saying goes, FML.

Watching Case 39 recently had me google for the amazing child actress, whom I found out to be Jodelle Ferland who also starred in Silent Hill the horror film that had created a lasting impression when I saw it about four years back, and both were filmed around the same time. She’s 15 now, no longer a “child”, but I think Jodelle has really unique features that you might find a wee bit asian, if you squint (my mind keeps morphing this drawing into Inoue Mao lol). At the age of 11 she pulled off such a difficult and easily stereotyped role in Case 39, which was truly impressive. I can’t even comprehend what I was thinking at that age, let alone make putting myself in another’s shoe seem so effortless.

It’s been a while! Two sketches born while taking a break in the office; obviously #2 took more time, because awww she’s so so so cute <3 (but I drew a terrible hand, what happened!) Oh, and my hair’s wavy like hers now.

Work has been good so far (y)