I’m beginning to doubt my future as a designer, because such a slacker wouldn’t even do for anything at all. There’s no drive for me to work at all, the lack of inspiration makes assignments really dull, and the many other frustrations like staying true to using my own images while others easily settle for stocks and brushes (it’s my philosophy, but I won’t care to explain), my lack of reference which has become a perpetual barrier preventing improvement of any sort from the current lousy standard I hold. I fearfully predict that this may last for the next one and a half years.
Grades no longer serve to encourage hard work from me, yet it’s what determines our “value” here. Does hard work really equate to good grades? I refuse to do anymore than what I feel like doing for there may be no end to that process, and I refuse to do what has been done before. So, my philosophies would probably kill me sooner than I expect. And by the end of it all, I would be left with nothing to move forward with; only everything to hold on to.
Something must be amiss. Life is not suppose to be like this?
In need of some thrill at this point of my life, I caught the horror flick Unrest on thursday. The gore was nothing, however, the very fact that they gave us an insight on Gross Anatomy and the real-looking cadavers (did I read somewhere they used real one(s)?) made me flinch in my seat, although it had been the most interesting thing to learn how they dealt with the donated corpses. Shipping them in wooden crates, dump them all in the liquid-filled tank, retrieving them like dump using only a metal hook to pull them out, etc. With regards to the realistic aspect, it had all been very gross but mind-blowing and good to watch. I simply CANNOT understand how in one particular scene the actor and actress had managed to bring themselves to jump into that murky tank, filled with gross looking corpses and body parts, in a bid to free their cursed cadaver. A very chilling thought huh. Besides the great acting and incredibly chilly atmosphere of the hospital corridors and lab, I dislike the story itself and the supernatural theme they decided to base this film on. And the terrible sound effects that were enough to disrupt what was going on in the scene. And I had expected Unrest to be a good movie =(
My right hand developed blisters while I was playing in a match during training last friday. One of them burst and made it impossible for me to grip the bat without a plaster. Till now it still looks terribly ugly. Over the weekend, I slept much, watched Yamada Taro Monogatari a second time, finished Bambino in two days and am now watching Romance (the Korean drama from quite long ago). No matter how much about Arashi I show to my mum, she can’t seem to deflect away from her favourite Kim Jae Won haha, although through YTM she’s come to like Sho-kun quite a bit for his prince-like image as Takuya Mimura (hmm, I wonder if it’s mean to be a pun on Takuya Kimura? Lol), Nino x Oh-chan (his cameo and the Ohmiya SK moment in the final episode) more (also because of that super super funny Mago2 Kodomo no Bangohan clip here), and through Bambino, MatsuJun a little more maybe. Where’s Aiba? In the zoo…. Not surprising I always associate him with the zoo. Oh yeah! We can’t stop discussing and laughing at the hilariously baka way Aiba introduced his name in Chinese during their 06 concert in Taipei. He sounded like a crow, or frog being slaughtered. ROFL.
Well if you’re wondering (at all?), I definitely feel better after this blog entry. Ciao! *Damn, this was suppose to be a solemn entry……*
Yesterday night I got bored after going offline, so after writing in my diary, I began doodling. You can see from here what I’ve been watching recently. =D I guess Adeline would know most of it lah, since we’re always sharing Youtube videos and discussing about Jap stuff. Here you go!

In case you’re wondering about the actual content, I’ll just list them down…
1. Jun the prankster on NinoArashi: here.
2. Sho’s hair. Ade only showed me a picture of him… weird parting with long long bangs.
3. Tsuka Takashi’s and Inoue Maoh’s CM: here.
4. Nino’s & Jun’s air guitar: here.
5. Chibi Sho and Kinki Kids: here.
6. Ohno got hit: here.
7. Aiba’s English: here.
8. Toma is still a Johnny’s Junior, after all these years, and even when Hey! Say! JUMP has debuted… Owww =( Senpai of the juniors forever? No way….!
9. Tada, Kimi wo Aishiteru – The girl Shizuru at the bottom left. The movie is soo sooo good! The story branched out from another film, Renai Shashin (Collage of Our Lives) starring Ryuhei Matsuda and Hirosue Ryoko, which I’m constantly looking for. I love this version, and I’m sure it’s about as good as the other. It stars Hiroshi Tamaki (Nodame Cantabile, I heard it’s really funny and good too) and Aoi Miyazaki (this is the first movie of her that I’ve watched. So far I like her! Really glad that she’s married to Sousuke Takaoka (that’s Sugimura from Battle Royale hehe)).
10. Happy Mid-Autumn Festival! (^_^)~ The IMD bbq-cum-steamboat-cum-fondue session at Joshua’s house today was priceless. So many people turned up for it! And thanks Grace for the Barney lantern…. weeee!
Outing with Adeline again on Saturday. We went to NUS for her to do research and photocopy books then lunched at Cine’s pastamania again! They changed most of the movie posters and even took away the Taiyou no Uta one stretched out on the floor. Letters from Iwo Jima was still there, and Nino still has that kiddish look no matter what. Every time we visit town we kind of always go to the same places – kino, cine, hmv, taka etc. But it’s damn fun at Kino that afternoon when we lingered in the Japanese books section and tried to read French by reading katakana… got tongue tied whilst trying. I figured katakana’s pretty useful in these areas, heh. And somehow I dreamt of visiting Kino, browsing the Jap photobooks section and finding Tsuka’s(Taki183) and Shun’s(Oguri Note) photobooks gone. WAHHH, I’d tucked them together at one corner on the last visit there. Haha.
At the magazine section, I caught sight of a mag with MatsuJun on the coverpage, which turns out to be the one I decided to purchase. $19 frigging dollars :S But chotto matte while I sidetrack for a bit: Adeline was telling me about this Jap magazine an.an for women which features a male celebrity annually in some very revealing photoshoot (and everything’s about sex); Hiroki Narimiya was featured last year… next in line is MATSUJUN! *OMG* My jaw literally DROPPED when the pics loaded. OMG MatsuJun quite naked in that kind of photoshoot with that model? Sexy! But after a while I found it rather disturbing. It’s way too much to handle, haha. Get your clothes back on please, Domyoji Tsukasa. ![]()
*Oh no, I wouldn’t want innocent Yamapi to be featured in something like this :S gasps* SEE??
Ok, collecting magazines aren’t usually what I do but for once I just had to get the Cinema Square ’07 Spring magazine. I kind of debated with myself over whether to buy or not, but since we previewed the magazine at the counter there were the <3 big big pictures <3 of ttthhhheeeemmm and they span for quite a number of pages as compared to some other magazines. Very worth the money! $19! Esther is currently very happy and ogling at the photos..... Some pretty scans (of course, some edited) for the day! :-
You know why I said it was worth the money? There’s my MatsuJun, ANDO MASANOBU and Tsukamoto Takashi <3 <3 <3 Matsuyama Ken'ich (L in Deathnote) was featured, but I reckon I am not so much of a MatsuKen fan as much as L and the rest above ^^
Jun’s scarf is really pretty! Various Jun pics:

Oh, the movie “Boku wa imoto ni koi wo suru” that Jun’s being interviewed on in this mag. The theme’s probably taboo again — love between a brother and sister. Opens 17 Febuary in Japan. www.bokuimo-themovie.com

Looking at the cast list, Ando Masanobu should be a minor character, but he gets two movie screenshots here! Hmmm, bald and still looking great ^^ Do you spot Hiroki too? (bottom left) LOL, I think he’s got an egg-y face here. “Sakuran” opens 24 February. www.sakuran-themovie.com

Here’s my Ando, who looks wayyyy menacing as though he’s Kiriyama in Battle Royale (2000). 
Who says a deranged machine gun killer has to be cold? Ando’s SOOOO HOT! Refined facial features, big pretty eyes and a very sexy mouth. *drools* Japan version of Johnny Depp. Indeed X3 Can you tell he’s 32 this year? =D
Lastly, we have Tsuka! Tsuka Tsuka Tsuka (hey it’s “like” in teochew, LOL). My favourite hairstyle of his would be Kouji in Taiyou no Uta, the school dropout in Gokusen, the Casanova in Stand up!, silly ANI in Kisarazu Cat’s Eye (…you know, all his blondie hair days. And I might as well list his filmography here.) www.enma.tv
Credits to boys_paper for some images used.
